Today has been one of those days where I doubted myself over a million times. The last few months I’ve felt this way for completely valid reasons. I’m not saying this for sympathy – I’m saying this for reality – to show you that on the inside I’m just like you. Yes, I may be smiling on the outside, but I’m not invincible. In all honestly, I don’t always have it all together and still have moments when I focus on the difficult parts of life.
Recently I’ve been hit with a lot of disheartening and disappointing news relating to my health (new diagnoses/more surgeries), my graduate job falling through which consequently meant my moving back to independent living in London didn’t happen – this domino effect has caused a tremendous impact, leaving me feel lost and full of grief.
It’s naturally re-opened a lot of insecurities I once had that I’d put to bed a long time ago through many years of CBT (cognitive behavioral therapy), trauma and pain management therapy. Truthfully, I’ve had a lot of days this past month where I’ve felt like I’m not enough. Where I’ve felt like giving up. When I’ve questioned myself and doubted my ability to juggle all areas in my life. I admit that I’ve found this difficult to comprehend because my ‘life plan’ has just crumbled in front of me – or so I thought.
Recognising these thoughts and feelings doesn’t mean you’re failing – it means you’re LIVING. I’m not saying this for sympathy – I’m saying this for reality. We’re not invincible.
As humans, we tend to live our lives in the “fast lane” so forget to take the time to really stop and honour how far we’ve come and accomplished. We tend to reach a goal and then fill our brain with worry about how we’re going to accomplish the next, and so on.
It’s learning the ability to switch your mind from “what’s going wrong” to “what’s going right for me?” mindset. Reminding yourself that you’re doing the best you can, that you’re really living ‘life’ for what it’s worth.
So continue to turn the page, be motivated, be curious because the biggest mistake you could ever make is to live life like you’ll get another chance to experience it all again.
Be open to new opportunities and change that may cross your path unexpectedly, because maybe everything you’ve lived through was all meant to take you to this point; giving you the courage to take the leap of faith, coming to terms with who you are and who you want to be.
Before you give up, learn to make up your mind about what YOU want out of life. Because you’ve already survived everything that has been thrown at you so far, and you’ll survive it again and again.
It’s time to stop letting our minds play games and begin living our lives through truth, gratitude and appreciation; to be proud and honour the path that got you to today 🙏🏼🦋💫 • Laura Lee •